I hear the faint sound of my ringtone
And immediately I spring into action jumping over furniture just to get to my phone.
A smile comes to my face; on caller id it’s your name being shown.
We talk for a while;
We’ve been just friends for what seems to be forever.
She invites me over because she doesn’t want to eat alone.
My heart skips a beat
Within moments I arrive at the door.
She opens it and sadness sweeps over my face as I see her with him.
I’m guessing he just got home.
We have dinner and they’re affectionate with each other every moment.
Unknown to her this to me is such a torment.
I’m the third wheel again.
For loving someone who doesn’t reciprocate my feelings I feel so ashamed.
I realize why she let me stay
It’s because it would seem rude to immediately ask me leave after coming all this way .
There’s a sore in my throat
I feel like I’m gonna cry
But I look at them and pretend like I’m having the time of my life.
To a place I had been invited
I feel like an outsider more than just unwanted.